Life, ahhh crap

I so wish things were different sometimes. Wish life were different. Wish people were different. There are so many things that feel so far away, I'll never touch them because of choices I've made. How can anything be impossible? I never used to believe that to be true, but wonder now if there really are some things that are just unattainable. And if I got them, would I want them then? I think so. But didn't I once want what I have now?